Honestly:

I want to take a break from reviewing for my bio final tomorrow to say: I find all of this work insanely difficult. I woke up early this morning to finish a problem set for chemistry, went to class all morning, talked about bio and stared into space at lunch, was in chem lab all afternoon, got home at 4:30, caused a toilet to overflow, flooding the kitchen underneath (not in a gross way, don't worry) studied for bio, took a brief trip to Dunkin Donuts and drank a bunch of coffee, and am now back at my desk studying. I have been listening to the most upbeat songs I have, turned up really loud, to help me feel like I am engaging in an important and exciting adventure of the mind rather than chained to my desk and my calculator, as I actually am. I do enjoy learning all this stuff, and I am SO thankful that I have interesting, kind, and intelligent people to study and hang out with. Still, I have basically left behind my normal life. I can handle this for two more weeks. I could probably handle it for a year. But I don't know if I can live without a life for the next eight years. What I CAN see is how this lifestyle of intense study could become addictive. It is incredibly rewarding. It must be even better once you're studying to be a doctor directly.